Saturday, May 30, 2009


I'm still waiting for AF to start. Today I started spotting and have been having miserable headaches. They feel more like migraines. When I went into for blood work this week, my HCG level was still in the 300's so they gave me the methotrexate shot.

This weekend I am trying to relax and take it easy. Not much else I want to share.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Another Failure

What started as a success is now officially a failure.

HCG levels by DPO:
17DPO = 109 Yay, we're pregnant!
19DPO = 279 More than doubled!
22DPO = 387 Damn
24DPO = 356 Double damn
26DPO = 325

So...I'm waiting for the pregnancy to end, but I still haven't started to bleed. I was suppose to go in today for more bloodwork, but didn't feel like it so I didn't go. What's the rush, ya know? The doc called this afternoon and said "Your levels today were......"(he's looking for it)..oh, I wasn't able to make it today. He said to come in tomorrow morning. I guess I will. He said that if it is still around 300 that we will do the methotrexate shot to speed things along. Great! Bring on the chemo drugs!

We'll I'm not sure where this leaves us. This may be the end of our journey. I just don't feel like going through this anymore. We do have 2 frozen embryos that I'm pretty sure we have to use in order to get our $20K back. So, we'll see. They may have to stay on ice for a couple years. This whole process is distroying who I am. It would be nice to have another kid, but at what cost to me.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Wishful Thinking....

I added a pregnancy ticker to my blog to keep up with where I "might" be.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

4 weeks - 2 days

Well I am hoping that I'm pregnant and that I'm 4 weeks and 2 days along! Tomorrow I go in for my beta HCG draw and I have a feeling it will be good news. XX

My symptoms at 16DPO are:
  • All day and night nausea
  • Aversion to food smells
  • All day breast tenderness >don't need to squeeze them for them to feel irritable.
  • Intense Dreaming
When I was pregnant with DS, I had a few days of breast tenderness around 5.5 weeks and 1 day of nausea at 6.5 weeks. If I am expecting, this is starting out quite differently.

I won't post the result tomorrow. If it is positive, there are two additional draws two days apart. So...5/13...5/15.....5/17. They do this to check to make sure your pregnancy hormone is rising appropriately. This gives them a clue as to the viability of the pregnancy. Pray for us!

Pregnant until proven otherwise!

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Feeling Good! 8dp3dt= 11DPO

I'm feeling good!

Symptoms are:
  1. Tender Breast (still)
  2. Fatigue
  3. Underlying nausea that comes and goes
  4. Brown spotting in the AM

If I'm pregnant, Mother's Day we would be 4 weeks! The blood test isn't until almost 5 weeks. Killing me............but pregnancy is a long process. I'll just have to chill out and be patient.

Monday, May 04, 2009

5 days past 3 day transfer = 8DPO

It's 8DPO and I'm feeling good! I had some cramping this AM. I'm hoping that it was implantation cramping! Other symptom is tender breast, but that could be because of the hormone support I'm on.

Good news...The nurse from the RE called to say that two of our remaining embryos made it to Day 5 or 6 and were frozen! Hopefully, this cycle will work and we will have the two snow bubs available if we want to try again.

I'm tempted to test this weekend at 4 weeks even, but DH wants me to wait until 5/14 for the beta blood test. It will be hard, but I'll try. If we are successful our EDD will be 1/17/10!